Odyssey October

October is the month I've been looking forward to since September..

There'll be a lot of thing I had to go to and do this month..

On the eve of October I went for movies with Ewa, we watched Abduction and Bini-biniku Gangster (BBG). Both stories are good, best of all,  BBG is hilarious. A good malay movie to watch. On our way back, we went to McD, stayed for 5 minutes and went home. 

At the New food court OU

Ewa posing with a chopstick

In the afternoon, I went to a friend's wedding at Dewan Sivik MBPJ. I got lost going to the wedding. Instead of taking 30 minutes, it took me nearly an hour drive from FRIM. I nearly gave up, but I didn't as I wanted to meet my friends from HUKM. Luckily, I arrived and was able to eat with some other friends (pharmacist).

A Friend's wedding

Coincidently I met Farah!!!

It's not the wedding I'm looking forward to.
It's my friends that I wanted to meet.

K.Long and I~

Our doorgift~

Happy faces~

So, this month's coming activity would be:

• TOT Smoking Cessation Course at Concorde Inn, KLIA, Sepang on the 4th and 5th Oct
• NADI Conference at Sunway Spa Hotel, PJ from 5th-9th Oct
• Pharmacist Conference on the 15th and 16th Oct
• I'm on leave for Singapore from 17th to 19th Oct *yippie yeay!!!*
• Unknown Course on the 24th and 25th Oct
• Working at a methadone clinic on the 29th Oct

October is a productive and fun month for me. I hope everything goes on smoothly as planned.

xoxo

Babies and Children are just so Adorable

Lately, I'm obsessed with babies and toddlers. They are so adorable. They're sweet, cute, chubby, laughable.... They're just adorable. I love them.

It seems that the babies love me too. *as long as they're well fed and comfortable*

Here are some photos I've taken with the little ones~

Posing with Baby Azam 

Baby Azam~

Adorable girl~

cute dimple girl~

I love her dimple!!!

The Adorable girl from Nisa's house

Baby Putri Aisyah Humaira

Umar & Amalina

Umar & Adam

Umar comel~

Baby Aniq & Wan 

Baby Aniq

Baby Aisha

Ewa, Baby Sumayya, my mum, K. Amni

Baby Sumayya crying~

Baby Sumayya
xoxo

Baby Sumayya

Awkward Moments~

I have a few awkward moments in life. 

Today I feel awkward in my own house. *I rented a room at an apartment next to my clinic* There are actually 4 people staying in this apartment. @ siblings, myself and this other girl. Why do I need to feel awkward at all? This is because my other housemate's family is here. I not the sociable girl who can talk freely with new people I just knew. I feel really shy around them.

They arrived Wednesday morning around 1am. I was asleep so I didn't meet them. In the morning I greeted her mother and went to work. That evening I didn't come home because I was so shy. I won't know what to do around strangers. It's better to vanish rather then trying to be invisible in the house like today. Today is my 1st day fasting in Syawal. I didn't want to go out so I came home. After ironing, cooking etc, they arrived home. I didn't know what to do, so I greeted aunty and watched tv.We had a short conversation which was not important. I break my fast in my room,  *I can;t bare eating in front of strangers*, prayed and blog. Now I'm blogging alone, hearing voices outside my room. 

After this, I'm gonna pray and sleep early. I'm ashamed of myself, but I don't know what to do. My self esteem around strangers are strange.

This is pathetic and it's happening to me.

xoxo

Annoyed!!!

Make Me Wanna Die~ *The Pretty Reckless*

I'm writing this entry as I'm annoyed with everyone especially my own family. I just hate it when people ask me when am I going to marry since my brother is already married. YES people, I'll marry soon. But NOT now!!!

If I'm married, who's going to:

• give my dad rmX00 every month?
• lend my car when my family wants to go outstation?
• give my siblings pocket money every now and then?
• buy household things when necessary??
• clean the house every weekend?
• help mum with house chores every other weekend?
• cook delicious meals when necessary??
• baby sit my siblings at home when my parents are not home?
• scold my siblings when they're lazy doing homework@chores?
• babble nonsense every other weekend????
• act as a big sister who bosses around in the house?

I'm not trying to bob up and down everything I've done. BUT sometimes when people do bad things to you and doesn't appreciate everything you've done, You just have to remind them everything.

I was so devastated when last Saturday my mum said "Mariam jeles ke Faruq kahwin". It's like she stabbed me in the heart with the sharpest dagger in the world. It wounded me till today. How can she say that when I was one of the people who spent a lot for the marriage to happen? I also helped to do the 'hantaran' till late at night, I helped make the ceremony happen and she had the heart to say that to my face??? How could of all people, my MUM was the one to say such thing??? Even my brother didn't appreciate what I did. He didn't even thank me for all I've done. He even acted as if I'm a slave who should do whatever he says *He scolded me for being late to send his sampin to the tailor, He scolded me for doing the hantaran*.

What did I do in life to deserve such treatment? Everything I did seems to be lacking. Every bad things  my brother did is forgiven and forgotten. Sometimes I think I was adopted by this family. Maybe I am adopted.  I'm an adopted child from the beginning, that's why my mum treat me as such. Sometimes I feel it's better to die than live~ I hate this feeling.

Sometimes Life Sucks~

xoxo

Doa Solat Istikharah

Hari ni selepas menziarah 6 buah rumah saudara dan rakan-rakan pok, petang tu isteri kepada kawan pok iaitu makcik Nora call ibu. Tujuan dia call adalah untuk menyampaikan berita entahla gembira ke tak. Katanya anak sedara dia nak cari jodoh. So, dia nak try la kenankan saya dengan lelaki tersebut. Lelaki tu muda dua tahun dari saya. *akhirnya yg nk merisik semua lebih muda dari saya. tula dulu taknak sangat lelaki muda.... tak matangla... saya queen controlla.. apela... haa... sekarang dh dapat. padan muka*

OK, makcik tu punyala excited. Hanya beberapa jam selepas kami balik dari beraya, terus call. Dahla tu call 2-3 kali. Siap nak add facebook. OK, terpaksala saya add facebook makcik Nora. Saya ada la stalk facebook lelaki tu. Tapi ada 9 org kawan je. And tak aktif. Gambar pon gambar kereta je. Agak tak memberangsangkanla pendek kata~huhu

Makcik Nora siap bagi nama penuh and minta wat solat istikarah. Tula sebabnya saya kena google doa solat istikarah. Maklumla, agama saya ni agak cetek. sebelum ni pernah buat, tapi tak serius. So malam ni kena buat dengan serius. 

Doa Solat Istikharah ni dapat dari website yang direcommend. Tujuan doa istikharah adalah untuk memohon semoga Allah menunjukkan keputusan yang terbaik untuk dilaksanakan.

"Ya Allah, aku memohon petunjuk daripadaMu dengan ilmuMu dan aku memohon ketentuan daripadaMu dengan kekuasaanMu dan aku memohon daripadaMu akan limpah kurniaanMu yang besar. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Berkuasa sedangkan aku tidak berkuasa dan Engkau Maha Mengetahui sedangkan aku tidak mengetahui dan Engkaulah Yang Maha Mengetahu segala perkara yang ghaib. Ya Allah, seandainya Engkau mengetahui bahawasanya urusan ini (sebutkan..) adalah baik bagiku pada agamaku, kehidupanku dan kesudahan urusanku sama ada cepat atau lambat, takdirkanlah ia bagiku dan permudahkanlah serta berkatlah bagiku padanya da seandainya Engkau mengetahui bahawa urusan ini (sebutkan..) mendatangkan keburukan bagiku pada agamaku, kehidupanku dan kesudahan urusanku sama ada cepat atau lambat, maka jauhkanlah aku daripadanya dan takdirkanlah kebaikan untukku dalam sebarang keadaan sekalipun kemudian redhailah aku dengannya".

(sebutkan urusan yang dimaksudkan di tempat yang bertitik).

Diharap Allah swt memberi petunjuk kepada saya mengenai jodoh ini. Amin

xoxo

Merdeka!!! Merdeka!!! Merdeka!!!

Malaysia's 54th Independence Day

Yes, today: 31st August 2011 is the 54th year Malaysian's celebrating their independence day. 

1957 is the year Malaysia got its independence from British colonial rule at Stadium Merdeka. This is the day we ought to appreciate what our previous leaders had done to gain independence for the country. We must also appreciate what our current leaders are doing so that Malaysia stays independence till years to come.

The effort for independence was spearheaded by Tunku Abdul Rahman, the first Prime Minister of Malaysia, who led a delegation of ministers and political leaders of Malaya in negotiations with the British in London for Merdeka, or independence.

Last year we celebrated our Independence day on Tuesday. This year, Independence day falls on Wednesday and on the second day of Eid.

Malaysia's Flag

I'm Malaysian. I am proud living in an independent harmony country where all races unite as one.
I LOVE MALAYSIA!!!

xoxo

Joyous Raya~

A video of Syuaib saying Fatimah comel. Fatimah is my form 5 sister~

1st Syawal 1432H

In the morning, going for Eid prayer at a Surau

My Dad

Mum and Dad

The pose we did every year

Syuaib

Faruq

Selamat Hari Raya.. Maaf Zahir dan Batin

Fatimah

Umar

Abdul Fattah

Amalina

Dad sorting out Duit Raya

Eveyone is anxious looking at the money

Sarah and Amalina Anxious looking at the money

everyone with their Duit Raya~

Happy and Joyous Raya 1432H~

xoxo